time check: 3:27AM
apparently you asked to sleep at 1:30AM but i swear i can't fall asleep. too many thoughts running through my mind-positive thoughts don't worry baby. i've been thinking so much lately about what has been going on in my life. a lot of things has happened and i always turn to you regardless whether my issues are relatable to you or not. it's such a blessing that you could actually be there for me and giving me all the encouragement and assurance i needed when i was down and out. thankful.
i love talking to you at night, be it just messaging you or going on webcam sessions with you. oh i have to say that i love going on webcam with you because i get to see your face and that really makes me happy. so what if you're working and you don't have time for me? you always try to text me to ask me if i've ate or not or what i'm doing when you have your free time from work. today you called me through a payphone and that whole 3 minutes plus of conversation with you was, loved. you're always telling me how much you look forward to seeing me/ talking to me.
you're always on my mind as far as i can remember. i always worry if you're eating well because you are always scrimping and saving for god knows what reason. but i like how you think and how you manage your money because it makes you so responsible and matured. unlike others, or i can say even me, always spend when i have the money and not think about the future.
you taught me a lot, you taught me to look forward and plan ahead. i know we have a future together and it will be a good one. so many plans made for us, even if we can't fulfil some now, we can always do that in the later part of our lives. we do have a long long way to go and by then we can do whatever we want when we feel like it. spending time with you is always the best part of my life.
come to think of it, i hate it but love it at the same time when you never let me sleep even for a short 10 minutes. you just had to jump all over my bed and make stupid noises just so i can't sleep. and the thing when you always try your best to pack my room up when it's as messy as hell and you complain about it because i said i cleaned my room up. everything i do that concerns you just falls into places and it really makes me feel so blessed having you in my life.
though we've only been together for a short while, it seems like we've been together for a while 2 years. you know me inside out and you always tries you best to give me the best.
just yesterday, after you knocked off and you called me through a payphone and was left with only 15 seconds you were like "15 second left i just want to say i love you" really got me so........ loved.
yes, love you to the moon and back sweetheart.
P/S sorry for the lengthy post but i just needed to type all these out
PP/S if you read my blog and have opinions about it, shut the fuck up. if you choose to read it then don't be a douchebag, nobody forced you to read what i typed. if you don't want to read what i typed or if you're unhappy with whatever i typed, then don't read my blog. period.
xx