it's pretty much true that how one can get paranoid and scared as you fall even deeper for a person. and i love every minute spent with you, having to see you smile and always trying to play with your sideburns.
and every time i think about how we got together, it really amuses me. and i think here's how it started:
last year, 2011. we met for the first time below block 411 because i was meeting () before i head for school and you came down with him. my first impression of you was that you're a little cold and unfriendly because you were literally quiet and ignoring me. you still had your weird extensions back then and you asked () to cut it away for you ahahahah then you rushed off for school shortly after. till today i still remember you in your uniform.
the first time we actually went out together in a way, as a group was on my birthday eve. you were with hadi, (), renjie and some others if i could even remember and i was with winnie. sad to say we never really spoke much at that time.
i remember how once when you, me and () were great friends and we always headed to the chicken rice shop to eat before ahyi came and also once when we forgot to pay and had to run back just to pay the bills.
all these while we never really spoke and all our conversations were either you trying to be sarcastic with me or the other way round hahahaha. i remember when you were trying very hard to woo winnie and always text me to consult me in this and that, asked me to meet you at the side gate just to pass the breakfast you made for her.
things were all the same and we meet every so often because i always go to the fifth floor hahaha until mid year when we actually talked more in private like on facebook and then you asked me to go on msn so we can webcam. i think from that day onwards it became more of an everyday thing to stay up till 2 or 3am just to webcam with you and do stupid faces and all. i don't know how i fell for you too but you were there when things happened and you gave me advices and all, encouraging me.
initially i didn't think much of it so i brushed it away thinking it was merely a crush on a good friend. i remember once when you told me that you wanted to woo me initially but you were shy and all, was very happy hearing it but who knows if you're just trying to sweet talk me? hehehe
that day, when () had to make a mountain out of a molehill and practically got everyone involved. i met you in the morning and i told you to choose () because you guys have been best friends for so many years and it's not worth it to forsake this friendship over someone like me whom you've only known for a year or so. trust me i wanted to cry at that time because i know it was going to be very hard to let you go as i was just falling for you and everything would have to come to such an abrupt ending. then i just walked away.
the feeling i get when i actually saw you that afternoon and you assured me, gave me a hug. i felt so loved yet still guilt stricken at the same time because i actually caused all these to happen.
but today, everything is fine. you and () are still friends though i still strongly believe he's so fake, everyone never harboured on to that issue and most importantly, we are finally together
oh and anyway happy birthday to your mom ♥
